The Enchanting Chaos

  One afternoon I was cleaning my house and when I clean the house, I plow at full force ahead and clean everything in sight because who knows when I'm going to have the courage to do it again!  While I washed the dishes my mind became very busy. I don't have a dishwasher and these dishes had sat in the sink and on the countertops for far too long. With a few suds sliding down into my sleeve I wiped my hand over my forehead and thought grumpily " who lets their house go this long without a proper clean up?" And then I started thinking about all the things I didn't have, like a dishwasher or an electric skillet, etc. I even shed a tear over the fact that my Christmas decorations seemed rather wimpy. I thought of those who have fancier homes and those who seem to be further along in life than I am.  Are you ever hard on yourself like I am with myself? I noticed the suds growing fainter in the  cold and stale water. Taking a moment, I grounded myself...

The Night I Told God I Hated Him  God has not forgotten about you. Believe it or not, He has the perfect plan for your life all wrapped up in the goodness that He is. Do you ever get frustrated, weary, or worn out with your circumstances? Do you ever fear that God is mad at you for having questions and doubts? God, He gets it. He gets us! Our tears and heartaches are not invisible to Him. He sees everything and hears everything. He is such a good, good, Father.  I want to share an intimate testimony from my past about a fear I had revolving around wondering if God was mad at me because of my lack of faith and trust. I felt abandoned. Nothing about life at that point made any sense, and I can't say things moving forward made any more sense either but I've grown to understand something very pivotal.  My dad suddenly passed away when I was 16. Those who know anything about me, know that my dad was my best friend. He was also all the things good dads oug...